STUCK IN THE GREY

Random pre-sleep ramblings

curvecreation:

I think what I hate most about cancer, isn’t the stress, the worry or the physical aspects such as surgery/recovery…it’s how it changes you.

My man and I aren’t the same people we were November last year. Cancer changes everything and therefore changes you. While I understand the changes were necessary to make it through the past 8 months, part of me resents how I’ve changed even though I can’t pinpoint what aspects I don’t like. The changes feel intrusive and therefore to me feel unnatural. I don’t feel like me anymore, the me I’d become accustom to.

Then there are the changes to my partner, which are more than I could ever have anticipated. It was described recently that with every time one faces cancer, they become a different person in reaction to what they go through. I’m still getting close to this changed person and it’s so hard to try and comprehend how changed we are.

I find myself sometimes, in the rare moments my thoughts go quiet now days, mourning the way life was, prior to cancer coming back into our lives and changing everything.

“You are loved just for being who you are, just for existing. You don’t have to do anything to earn it. Your shortcomings, your lack of self-esteem, physical perfection, or social and economic success - none of that matters. No one can take this love away from you, and it will always be here.”

– Ram Dass  (via redtemplo)

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redtemplo:

thuglifeandhackysacks:

Your phone is your worst enemy when your lonely or horny.
Don’t let the [phone] devil use you.

Be strong yall


Aubrey Plaza by Father John Misty

Aubrey Plaza by Father John Misty

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james blake - a case of you

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“The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It’s strange what desire will make foolish people do.”

– C. IsaaK / Wicked Game (via m-as-tu-vu)

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“If we do not know how to take care of ourselves and to love ourselves, we cannot take care of the people we love. Loving oneself is the foundation for loving another person.”

–  Thích Nhất Hạnh 

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babefield:

YOU CAN REALLY HAVE WHATEVER YOU WANT IF YOU WANT IT ENOUGH AND THIS IS PROOF.

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sixsteen:

Boy: you look so pretty you are so hot

Me: ??? Where’s the news

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redtemplo:

wavechild:

strive, jerk

strive jerk is something i would say because everyone needs to grow up

redtemplo:

wavechild:

strive, jerk

strive jerk is something i would say because everyone needs to grow up

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janemba:

Don’t let these tumblr hoes convince u that even you can be a hoe. Not everyone is cut out for such a life ! Drink your worter and make those gradients on photoshop in peace

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